Monday, September 25, 2006
Monday, September 25, 2006
Mabon Woot
Current mood: sleepy
Tonight Cheryl had a Mabon Woot (basically a get together/dessert party with a pagan ritual thrown in)I bought CJ a beautiful black Calvin Kline dress shirt used at SOMETHING WICKED for $7, I know he feels a bit out of place with my friends, he is more into NASCAR and country music and the 49ers than Gothic music, Pagan rituals and all that but he is willing and interested in learning more and so I am actually spending time to learn about what he likes and even listen to the music he likes since he listens to mine. CJ did construction for a while and being a guy he wore pretty much anything he had including his nicer clothes if they were clean, so of course he doesn't have all that many clothes left that are in good shape. When we went to the Goth Coffee last Thursday he felt really out of place not just cause he did not know anyone but because he was wearing a bright red shirt and jeans and most of my friends dress dark and a little odd. I keep telling him he doesn't have to worry about it, that most of them don't care what he wears and I love him no matter what, but then I have to admit I would feel a tad out of place going to a country bar (or most regular bars) in full Goth gear (which I have done and it is not all that fun if you are not with your own crowd)So tonight he wore the black shirt I got him and a pair of black jeans with reflective yellow paint splattered on them (it actually looked kind of cool) and well I am biased but I think he looked hot. I wore my black leggings, semi sheer long skirt and Day of the Dead painted t-shirt.We took a large bottle of Merlot and a one layer German chocolate cake and sat out back with a bunch of my friends and ate goodies and I drank some of the chardonnay they had. Finally it got pretty cold and so Benhi lead us in a short reading (to which we responded WOOT WOOT, which is why it is called a woot) and then CJ and I headed home.I feel bad cause he could not get back to sleep when we got home so we watched TV and I gave him a back rub and just as he was suppose to get up to get ready he fell asleep, it is going to be a long graveyard shift for him tonight.
Current mood: sleepy
Tonight Cheryl had a Mabon Woot (basically a get together/dessert party with a pagan ritual thrown in)I bought CJ a beautiful black Calvin Kline dress shirt used at SOMETHING WICKED for $7, I know he feels a bit out of place with my friends, he is more into NASCAR and country music and the 49ers than Gothic music, Pagan rituals and all that but he is willing and interested in learning more and so I am actually spending time to learn about what he likes and even listen to the music he likes since he listens to mine. CJ did construction for a while and being a guy he wore pretty much anything he had including his nicer clothes if they were clean, so of course he doesn't have all that many clothes left that are in good shape. When we went to the Goth Coffee last Thursday he felt really out of place not just cause he did not know anyone but because he was wearing a bright red shirt and jeans and most of my friends dress dark and a little odd. I keep telling him he doesn't have to worry about it, that most of them don't care what he wears and I love him no matter what, but then I have to admit I would feel a tad out of place going to a country bar (or most regular bars) in full Goth gear (which I have done and it is not all that fun if you are not with your own crowd)So tonight he wore the black shirt I got him and a pair of black jeans with reflective yellow paint splattered on them (it actually looked kind of cool) and well I am biased but I think he looked hot. I wore my black leggings, semi sheer long skirt and Day of the Dead painted t-shirt.We took a large bottle of Merlot and a one layer German chocolate cake and sat out back with a bunch of my friends and ate goodies and I drank some of the chardonnay they had. Finally it got pretty cold and so Benhi lead us in a short reading (to which we responded WOOT WOOT, which is why it is called a woot) and then CJ and I headed home.I feel bad cause he could not get back to sleep when we got home so we watched TV and I gave him a back rub and just as he was suppose to get up to get ready he fell asleep, it is going to be a long graveyard shift for him tonight.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Royalty Weekend
Current mood: bouncy
I got a little bit of royalties from my videos yesterday which is great cause both CJ and I have been scary broke this month. The first half of the month I was driving in and out of Nampa pretty much everyday so CJ could finish up the job he had there and get moved into Boise and start his new job (he is working graveyard midnight to 8 am) I have used up twice as much gas this month as I usually do, with all the driving and extra expenses I was broke really early this month and CJ does not get his first check til after the first of the month. So getting a little bit of extra bonus money helped us a ton. We went grocery shopping for some of the basics and a few treats and bought a few goodies for us. I went to Target and bought 3 oriental purses (two take-out box ones and a flat one) and some fancy chopsticks for $2.50 each and some cool kids beads for X-mas presents. I want to get CJ's daughter a box full of dress up stuff, I plan to keep an eye out for Halloween costumes like Disney Princess's and fun jewelry, scarves, hair stuff and anything I think she might enjoy and then find or make a neat box to put them in. I might take a sturdy liquor box with a lid that opens on one end and cover it with a nice shelf paper to decorate and make it stronger. I went by Walgreens and bought this great candle holder for only $2.50 it has a skeleton sitting around a blue glass globe type candle holder, it is perfect for my skeleton and skull collection. I also bought two champagne style flutes that are clear plastic with spider webs and a jeweled spider on them, I have some of the wine goblet ones of the same style. I have been looking for lingerie to take pics in for my website but so far no luck, I am going to take pics anyway sometime soon and maybe buy material to make some stuff for them.I went by Elton and Cheryl's shop SOMETHING WICKED today and bought CJ a shirt I hope will fit and myself a coffin shaped cigarette holder. I have pretty much blown through all my money this weekend but it is so nice to be able to spend a little and not worry so much, I still have a little for the week and a bit more then a forth of a tank of gas to last til Friday morning so I am not worried.
Current mood: bouncy
I got a little bit of royalties from my videos yesterday which is great cause both CJ and I have been scary broke this month. The first half of the month I was driving in and out of Nampa pretty much everyday so CJ could finish up the job he had there and get moved into Boise and start his new job (he is working graveyard midnight to 8 am) I have used up twice as much gas this month as I usually do, with all the driving and extra expenses I was broke really early this month and CJ does not get his first check til after the first of the month. So getting a little bit of extra bonus money helped us a ton. We went grocery shopping for some of the basics and a few treats and bought a few goodies for us. I went to Target and bought 3 oriental purses (two take-out box ones and a flat one) and some fancy chopsticks for $2.50 each and some cool kids beads for X-mas presents. I want to get CJ's daughter a box full of dress up stuff, I plan to keep an eye out for Halloween costumes like Disney Princess's and fun jewelry, scarves, hair stuff and anything I think she might enjoy and then find or make a neat box to put them in. I might take a sturdy liquor box with a lid that opens on one end and cover it with a nice shelf paper to decorate and make it stronger. I went by Walgreens and bought this great candle holder for only $2.50 it has a skeleton sitting around a blue glass globe type candle holder, it is perfect for my skeleton and skull collection. I also bought two champagne style flutes that are clear plastic with spider webs and a jeweled spider on them, I have some of the wine goblet ones of the same style. I have been looking for lingerie to take pics in for my website but so far no luck, I am going to take pics anyway sometime soon and maybe buy material to make some stuff for them.I went by Elton and Cheryl's shop SOMETHING WICKED today and bought CJ a shirt I hope will fit and myself a coffin shaped cigarette holder. I have pretty much blown through all my money this weekend but it is so nice to be able to spend a little and not worry so much, I still have a little for the week and a bit more then a forth of a tank of gas to last til Friday morning so I am not worried.
Friday, September 22, 2006
Friday, September 22, 2006
WASHINGTON - Now the death toll is 9/11 times two.
WASHINGTON - Now the death toll is 9/11 times two. U.S. military deaths from Iraq and Afghanistan now match those of the most devastating terrorist attack in America's history, the trigger for what came next. Add casualties from chasing terrorists elsewhere in the world, and the total has passed the Sept. 11 figure. The latest milestone for a country at war comes without commemoration. It also may well come without the precision of knowing who is the 2,973rd man or woman of arms to die in conflict in Iraq and Afghanistan, or just when it happens. The terrorist attacks killed 2,973 victims in New York, Washington and Pennsylvania.Not for the first time, war that was started to answer death has resulted in at least as much death for the country that was first attacked, quite apart from the higher numbers of enemy and civilians killed.Historians note that this grim accounting is not how the success or failure of warfare is measured, and that the reasons for conflict are broader than what served as the spark.The body count from World War II was far higher for Allied troops than for the crushed Axis. Americans lost more men in each of a succession of Pacific battles than the 2,390 people who died at Pearl Harbor in the attack that made the U.S. declare war on Japan. The U.S. lost 405,399 in the theaters of World War II.Despite a death toll that pales next to that of the great wars, one casualty milestone after another has been observed and reflected upon this time, especially in Iraq.There was the benchmark of seeing more U.S. troops die in the occupation than in the swift and successful invasion. And the benchmarks of 1,000 dead, 2,000, 2,500.Now this."There's never a good war but if the war's going well and the overall mission remains powerful, these numbers are not what people are focusing on," said Julian Zelizer, a political historian at Boston University. "If this becomes the subject, then something's gone wrong."Beyond the tribulations of the moment and the now-rampant doubts about the justification and course of the Iraq war, Zelizer said Americans have lost firsthand knowledge of the costs of war that existed keenly up to the 1960s, when people remembered two world wars and Korea, and faced Vietnam."A kind of numbness comes from that," he said. "We're not that country anymore — more bothered, more nervous. This isn't a country that's used to ground wars anymore."Almost 10 times more Americans have died in Iraq than in Afghanistan, where U.S. casualties have been remarkably light by any historical standard, although climbing in recent months in the face of a resurgent Taliban.As of Friday, the U.S. death toll stood at 2,693 in the Iraq war and 278 in and around Afghanistan, for a total of 2,971, two short of the Sept. 11 attacks.The Pentagon reports 56 military deaths and one civilian Defense Department death in other parts of the world from Operation Enduring Freedom, the anti-terrorism war distinct from Iraq.Altogether, 3,028 have died abroad since Sept. 11, 2001.The civilian toll in Iraq hit record highs in the summer, with 6,599 violent deaths reported in July and August alone, the United Nations said this week.The latest U.S. deaths identified by the armed forces:_Army 2nd Lt. Emily J.T. Perez, 23, Fort Washington, Md., who died Sept. 12 in Kifl, Iraq, from an explosive device detonated near her vehicle. A former high school sprinter who sang in her West Point gospel choir, she was assigned to the 204th Support Battalion, 2nd Brigade, 4th Infantry Division, Fort Hood, Texas. _Marine Sgt. Christopher M. Zimmerman, 28, Stephenville, Texas, killed Wednesday in Anbar province, Iraq. He was assigned to 2nd Reconnaissance Battalion, 2nd Marine Division, II Marine Expeditionary Force, Camp Lejeune, N.C. A new study on the war dead and where they come from suggests that the notion of "rich man's war, poor man's fight" has become a little truer over time. Among the Americans killed in the Iraq war, 34 percent have come from communities reporting the lowest levels of family income. Half come from middle income communities and only 17 percent from the highest income level. That's a change from World War II, when all income groups were represented about equally. In Korea, Vietnam and Iraq, the poor have made up a progressively larger share of casualties, by this analysis. Eye-for-an-eye vengeance was not the sole motivator for what happened after the 2001 attacks any more than Pearl Harbor alone was responsible for all that followed. But Pearl Harbor caught the U.S. in the middle of mobilization, debate, rising tensions with looming enemies and a European war already in progress. Historians doubt anyone paid much attention to sad milestones once America threw itself into the fight. In contrast, the United States had no imminent war intentions against anyone on Sept. 10, 2001. One bloody day later, it did.Calvin Woodward, AP Writer
WASHINGTON - Now the death toll is 9/11 times two. U.S. military deaths from Iraq and Afghanistan now match those of the most devastating terrorist attack in America's history, the trigger for what came next. Add casualties from chasing terrorists elsewhere in the world, and the total has passed the Sept. 11 figure. The latest milestone for a country at war comes without commemoration. It also may well come without the precision of knowing who is the 2,973rd man or woman of arms to die in conflict in Iraq and Afghanistan, or just when it happens. The terrorist attacks killed 2,973 victims in New York, Washington and Pennsylvania.Not for the first time, war that was started to answer death has resulted in at least as much death for the country that was first attacked, quite apart from the higher numbers of enemy and civilians killed.Historians note that this grim accounting is not how the success or failure of warfare is measured, and that the reasons for conflict are broader than what served as the spark.The body count from World War II was far higher for Allied troops than for the crushed Axis. Americans lost more men in each of a succession of Pacific battles than the 2,390 people who died at Pearl Harbor in the attack that made the U.S. declare war on Japan. The U.S. lost 405,399 in the theaters of World War II.Despite a death toll that pales next to that of the great wars, one casualty milestone after another has been observed and reflected upon this time, especially in Iraq.There was the benchmark of seeing more U.S. troops die in the occupation than in the swift and successful invasion. And the benchmarks of 1,000 dead, 2,000, 2,500.Now this."There's never a good war but if the war's going well and the overall mission remains powerful, these numbers are not what people are focusing on," said Julian Zelizer, a political historian at Boston University. "If this becomes the subject, then something's gone wrong."Beyond the tribulations of the moment and the now-rampant doubts about the justification and course of the Iraq war, Zelizer said Americans have lost firsthand knowledge of the costs of war that existed keenly up to the 1960s, when people remembered two world wars and Korea, and faced Vietnam."A kind of numbness comes from that," he said. "We're not that country anymore — more bothered, more nervous. This isn't a country that's used to ground wars anymore."Almost 10 times more Americans have died in Iraq than in Afghanistan, where U.S. casualties have been remarkably light by any historical standard, although climbing in recent months in the face of a resurgent Taliban.As of Friday, the U.S. death toll stood at 2,693 in the Iraq war and 278 in and around Afghanistan, for a total of 2,971, two short of the Sept. 11 attacks.The Pentagon reports 56 military deaths and one civilian Defense Department death in other parts of the world from Operation Enduring Freedom, the anti-terrorism war distinct from Iraq.Altogether, 3,028 have died abroad since Sept. 11, 2001.The civilian toll in Iraq hit record highs in the summer, with 6,599 violent deaths reported in July and August alone, the United Nations said this week.The latest U.S. deaths identified by the armed forces:_Army 2nd Lt. Emily J.T. Perez, 23, Fort Washington, Md., who died Sept. 12 in Kifl, Iraq, from an explosive device detonated near her vehicle. A former high school sprinter who sang in her West Point gospel choir, she was assigned to the 204th Support Battalion, 2nd Brigade, 4th Infantry Division, Fort Hood, Texas. _Marine Sgt. Christopher M. Zimmerman, 28, Stephenville, Texas, killed Wednesday in Anbar province, Iraq. He was assigned to 2nd Reconnaissance Battalion, 2nd Marine Division, II Marine Expeditionary Force, Camp Lejeune, N.C. A new study on the war dead and where they come from suggests that the notion of "rich man's war, poor man's fight" has become a little truer over time. Among the Americans killed in the Iraq war, 34 percent have come from communities reporting the lowest levels of family income. Half come from middle income communities and only 17 percent from the highest income level. That's a change from World War II, when all income groups were represented about equally. In Korea, Vietnam and Iraq, the poor have made up a progressively larger share of casualties, by this analysis. Eye-for-an-eye vengeance was not the sole motivator for what happened after the 2001 attacks any more than Pearl Harbor alone was responsible for all that followed. But Pearl Harbor caught the U.S. in the middle of mobilization, debate, rising tensions with looming enemies and a European war already in progress. Historians doubt anyone paid much attention to sad milestones once America threw itself into the fight. In contrast, the United States had no imminent war intentions against anyone on Sept. 10, 2001. One bloody day later, it did.Calvin Woodward, AP Writer
Sunday, September 17, 2006
good weekend
Good weekend
Current mood: cheerful
Saturday was the first rainy day we have had in so long it was great, just a light drizzle but so needed to clear the air which has been so full of smoke the last few weeks. CJ and I woke up around 6:30 and went over to Chef's Hut which is finally open again. One of the regulars and one of the waitresses bought it from the old owner and redid the inside, they still have the same menu just a bit smaller portions which is fine.We sat around and had coffee and goofed off over breakfast, all before the sun even came up. We decided that since it was going to be a nice cool day we would try going to Hyde Park Street Fair in Camel's Back Park in the northend of Boise. I took a couple of Vicodin (5mg) and we waited til about 11 to make sure they hit as well as they could. We stopped by my grandma's on the way down there and put some laundry in the machine over there then headed across town to the foothills where the park is.CJ brough one of my canes since I had to use one that day.I have been going to Hyde Park Street Fair since it started and was still a "street fair" and only took up a couple of blocks, now it fills up the majority of a good size park. There are all kinds of booths from political and activist booths, artists and jewelry booths, soap makers, perfumeries, cool arty clothes and crafts. They have two stages of music, all kinds of bands from rock in the evening to folk in the morning and even belly dancers.Me and friendI did pretty good even though my knees were not happy with all the walking on uneven grass. I found a cool woodcut dragon for CJ and he bought me a great Buddha wind chime and then we split a smoked turkey leg. I was kind of disappointed that the roasted corn people were not there and we looked at all the food, all of which was over priced but much of it we can get here in town, scones, hamburgers, corndogs, oriental food but a smoked turkey leg was just so different we decided to try it even though it was $6. It was great and sadly the bees thought so too and we had about 4 that were just determined to get some of it, usually just as we were putting it in our mouths so we had to give up on it before we finished it but it did fill us up. We looked a bit longer and then headed home cause my energy was fading pretty fast.We stopped and got shakes at Fancy Freeze then headed home where I had to get an hours sleep because of the Vicodin. Finally after a while we went out to his Mom's house for her and his niece's birthday party. CJ and I got his niece (13) 2 happy bunny posters and one of a monkey blowing bubblegum out his butt, perfect 13 yr old humor. I gave her a couple bracelets and CJ gave his mom a pewter fairy and I gave her a necklace and stationary. We had a great time and his family seems to like me which is important to me since I have been in a relationship where the guys family hated me and it is hard.Sunday morning Jeff needed a ride and so CJ went with me and after we dropped Jeff off we went to Big City Café and had something to eat, I had this amazing Peach scone and CJ had a huge almond poppy seed muffin and a coffee drink. They are a cool place to hang out and not that expensive. We had forgotten to get the clothes last night so now they got all damp from the dew so we have to go back soon and get them then we are going to go to Industria hopefully tonight. So far it has been a pretty good weekend.
Current mood: cheerful
Saturday was the first rainy day we have had in so long it was great, just a light drizzle but so needed to clear the air which has been so full of smoke the last few weeks. CJ and I woke up around 6:30 and went over to Chef's Hut which is finally open again. One of the regulars and one of the waitresses bought it from the old owner and redid the inside, they still have the same menu just a bit smaller portions which is fine.We sat around and had coffee and goofed off over breakfast, all before the sun even came up. We decided that since it was going to be a nice cool day we would try going to Hyde Park Street Fair in Camel's Back Park in the northend of Boise. I took a couple of Vicodin (5mg) and we waited til about 11 to make sure they hit as well as they could. We stopped by my grandma's on the way down there and put some laundry in the machine over there then headed across town to the foothills where the park is.CJ brough one of my canes since I had to use one that day.I have been going to Hyde Park Street Fair since it started and was still a "street fair" and only took up a couple of blocks, now it fills up the majority of a good size park. There are all kinds of booths from political and activist booths, artists and jewelry booths, soap makers, perfumeries, cool arty clothes and crafts. They have two stages of music, all kinds of bands from rock in the evening to folk in the morning and even belly dancers.Me and friendI did pretty good even though my knees were not happy with all the walking on uneven grass. I found a cool woodcut dragon for CJ and he bought me a great Buddha wind chime and then we split a smoked turkey leg. I was kind of disappointed that the roasted corn people were not there and we looked at all the food, all of which was over priced but much of it we can get here in town, scones, hamburgers, corndogs, oriental food but a smoked turkey leg was just so different we decided to try it even though it was $6. It was great and sadly the bees thought so too and we had about 4 that were just determined to get some of it, usually just as we were putting it in our mouths so we had to give up on it before we finished it but it did fill us up. We looked a bit longer and then headed home cause my energy was fading pretty fast.We stopped and got shakes at Fancy Freeze then headed home where I had to get an hours sleep because of the Vicodin. Finally after a while we went out to his Mom's house for her and his niece's birthday party. CJ and I got his niece (13) 2 happy bunny posters and one of a monkey blowing bubblegum out his butt, perfect 13 yr old humor. I gave her a couple bracelets and CJ gave his mom a pewter fairy and I gave her a necklace and stationary. We had a great time and his family seems to like me which is important to me since I have been in a relationship where the guys family hated me and it is hard.Sunday morning Jeff needed a ride and so CJ went with me and after we dropped Jeff off we went to Big City Café and had something to eat, I had this amazing Peach scone and CJ had a huge almond poppy seed muffin and a coffee drink. They are a cool place to hang out and not that expensive. We had forgotten to get the clothes last night so now they got all damp from the dew so we have to go back soon and get them then we are going to go to Industria hopefully tonight. So far it has been a pretty good weekend.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
pic of us
Current mood: groggy
CJ and me at industria sept 17th 06We went to Industria tonight after all, I wsn't sure I wanted to go I have been really tired lately, maybe it is the change in the weather or just warn out from yesterday but we came home early, I felt bad dragging CJ away from the club before it really got busy but I just feel groggy, he was so sweet about it. We did get parking right out infront of the apt which never happens that late at night it seems.The apt complex claims that they are going to number the spots and let us have people towed for parking in our spots, I had better get a spot in the lot out front of the apt cause I am not going to have to walk all over hell and breakfast for parking.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Friday, September 12, 2006
astrology love match info
Current mood: cheerful
CJ asked me on the phone if I knew where he could find Astrology info about us as a couple, I dont know why but I was flattered he thinks of us like that, I always worry that when I am not there the person I care about does not think about me, and knowing he does makes me feel good.Here is the info I found at ASTROLOGY.COMAquarius and Sagittarius
When Sagittarius and Aquarius join together in a love match, Aquarian ideals and Sagittarian knowledge combine to make them a creative and unique couple. This partnership is uninhibited, and while it can get competitive with these two, there's never a dull moment! Underneath any romantic overtone, there exists a great friendship; their Signs are two apart and this tends to give them an ability to communicate well as well as an excellent rapport. Both are idealistic and excited about life, and together they enjoy great times. Together, the two can fly without fear of falling.
Many Sagittarius-Aquarius relationships enjoy the feeling of mutual admiration. Sagittarius is attracted to Aquarius's individuality, vision and creative capacity. Aquarius admires Sagittarian excellence and initiative -- Sagittarius is always coming up new ideas, but they aren't always able to carry them out the way Aquarius can. Both Signs relish their independence, and there aren't many conflicts because each understands this about the other. At times, Sagittarius may seem too selfish for Aquarius, who in turn may be too out-there for their Sagittarian partner. As long as they communicate their happiness about the relationship, they will overcome any bumps in the road, major or minor.
Sagittarius is ruled by the Planet Jupiter and Aquarius is ruled by the Planets Saturn and Uranus. These three Planets form a sort of cycle that typifies the Sagittarius-Aquarius relationship, especially their ability to see eye-to-eye. Uranus is the Planet of new ideas and creativity; it's from this Planet that Aquarius gets its grandiose ideas. Then Jupiter steps in with its influences toward higher learning, expansion and abundance. Finally Saturn keeps the process going to completion, following up after Uranus's inspiration has been exhausted and Jupiter's energy moves on to new things.
Sagittarius is a Fire Sign and Aquarius is an Air Sign. Air fuels Fire and keeps it going much in the same way that Aquarius can inspire Sagittarius to make great leaps. Sagittarius can keep up with the Water Bearer's tendency to engage in experiments based on futuristic ideas. When they come together, they are an innovative, inventive team! Aquarius and Sagittarius use intellect and a sense of adventure to gain new experiences -- each fosters creativity in the other. Both Signs have a wide variety of interests, and Sagittarius's need to get in on the action gives them ease with which to put the plans of the idea-generating Aquarius into action.
Sagittarius is a Mutable Sign and Aquarius is a Fixed Sign. Sag rolls with the punches and is happy to stop what they are doing to tend to other matters. Aquarius is slightly less adjustable, more into sustaining a project already in progress as long as they are passionate about its completion. Aquarius can help situate and resolve issues rather than jumping blindly into new ones, whereas Sagittarius is happy to drift from one subject to the next as the mood takes them. They are both loyal and devoted to one another, and they can get past a lot together.
What's the best aspect of the Sagittarius-Aquarius relationship? It's their ability to resolve difficult issues when they put their hearts in the matter. Mutable Fire and Fixed Air cover all the bases: These partners can stick with an idea once it's firmly implanted. Their formidable combination makes theirs a relationship of outward motion as well as inward depth
Current mood: cheerful
CJ asked me on the phone if I knew where he could find Astrology info about us as a couple, I dont know why but I was flattered he thinks of us like that, I always worry that when I am not there the person I care about does not think about me, and knowing he does makes me feel good.Here is the info I found at ASTROLOGY.COMAquarius and Sagittarius
When Sagittarius and Aquarius join together in a love match, Aquarian ideals and Sagittarian knowledge combine to make them a creative and unique couple. This partnership is uninhibited, and while it can get competitive with these two, there's never a dull moment! Underneath any romantic overtone, there exists a great friendship; their Signs are two apart and this tends to give them an ability to communicate well as well as an excellent rapport. Both are idealistic and excited about life, and together they enjoy great times. Together, the two can fly without fear of falling.
Many Sagittarius-Aquarius relationships enjoy the feeling of mutual admiration. Sagittarius is attracted to Aquarius's individuality, vision and creative capacity. Aquarius admires Sagittarian excellence and initiative -- Sagittarius is always coming up new ideas, but they aren't always able to carry them out the way Aquarius can. Both Signs relish their independence, and there aren't many conflicts because each understands this about the other. At times, Sagittarius may seem too selfish for Aquarius, who in turn may be too out-there for their Sagittarian partner. As long as they communicate their happiness about the relationship, they will overcome any bumps in the road, major or minor.
Sagittarius is ruled by the Planet Jupiter and Aquarius is ruled by the Planets Saturn and Uranus. These three Planets form a sort of cycle that typifies the Sagittarius-Aquarius relationship, especially their ability to see eye-to-eye. Uranus is the Planet of new ideas and creativity; it's from this Planet that Aquarius gets its grandiose ideas. Then Jupiter steps in with its influences toward higher learning, expansion and abundance. Finally Saturn keeps the process going to completion, following up after Uranus's inspiration has been exhausted and Jupiter's energy moves on to new things.
Sagittarius is a Fire Sign and Aquarius is an Air Sign. Air fuels Fire and keeps it going much in the same way that Aquarius can inspire Sagittarius to make great leaps. Sagittarius can keep up with the Water Bearer's tendency to engage in experiments based on futuristic ideas. When they come together, they are an innovative, inventive team! Aquarius and Sagittarius use intellect and a sense of adventure to gain new experiences -- each fosters creativity in the other. Both Signs have a wide variety of interests, and Sagittarius's need to get in on the action gives them ease with which to put the plans of the idea-generating Aquarius into action.
Sagittarius is a Mutable Sign and Aquarius is a Fixed Sign. Sag rolls with the punches and is happy to stop what they are doing to tend to other matters. Aquarius is slightly less adjustable, more into sustaining a project already in progress as long as they are passionate about its completion. Aquarius can help situate and resolve issues rather than jumping blindly into new ones, whereas Sagittarius is happy to drift from one subject to the next as the mood takes them. They are both loyal and devoted to one another, and they can get past a lot together.
What's the best aspect of the Sagittarius-Aquarius relationship? It's their ability to resolve difficult issues when they put their hearts in the matter. Mutable Fire and Fixed Air cover all the bases: These partners can stick with an idea once it's firmly implanted. Their formidable combination makes theirs a relationship of outward motion as well as inward depth
Monday, September 11, 2006
Monday, September 11, 2006
9-11 +5
Current mood: sad
I had stayed at CJs brothers house where we babysat his neice and this morning I was driving back on the freeway listening to MANCOW and they were playing excrepts from thier show on 9-11-01 and I found myself crying again.When it first happened I was in a phase of not watching tv for nearly 2 years and I got on line to my then BF steve telling me that 2 planes had crashed into the world trade centers. I honestly thought he was lying to try to get me to turn on my tv.I watched as they fell, I watched for 3 days and cried so hard I threw up, I finally had to turn the tv off after 3 days because I could barely get out of bed I was so upset. Being empathic is a bitch sometimes. I finally turned off my TV and did not turn it on for another 6 months.I hate that things affect me so badly, that I empatize with people so much and that I allow myself to feel too much.I absolutely can not watch any of the movies about 9-11, I cried watching Adam Sandler's CLICK Saturday night I can't imagine how I would be watching World Trade Center or Flight 93. I would be sick with it for days.I am going back to bed, I dont think I am turning the tv on today, I just can't deal with all the rememberance even though I know it is important to remember, I will never forget but I just can't face it now, maybe in 5 more years.
Current mood: sad
I had stayed at CJs brothers house where we babysat his neice and this morning I was driving back on the freeway listening to MANCOW and they were playing excrepts from thier show on 9-11-01 and I found myself crying again.When it first happened I was in a phase of not watching tv for nearly 2 years and I got on line to my then BF steve telling me that 2 planes had crashed into the world trade centers. I honestly thought he was lying to try to get me to turn on my tv.I watched as they fell, I watched for 3 days and cried so hard I threw up, I finally had to turn the tv off after 3 days because I could barely get out of bed I was so upset. Being empathic is a bitch sometimes. I finally turned off my TV and did not turn it on for another 6 months.I hate that things affect me so badly, that I empatize with people so much and that I allow myself to feel too much.I absolutely can not watch any of the movies about 9-11, I cried watching Adam Sandler's CLICK Saturday night I can't imagine how I would be watching World Trade Center or Flight 93. I would be sick with it for days.I am going back to bed, I dont think I am turning the tv on today, I just can't deal with all the rememberance even though I know it is important to remember, I will never forget but I just can't face it now, maybe in 5 more years.
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Blood moon
Current mood: hopeful
A few nights ago was the full moon and CJ and I were coming back from the store, all of the smoke that has been making the air here in Boise so awful caused the moon to look not only huge but absolutely blood red. CJ pointed it out to me and was as excited as I was to see it. It meant a lot to me that CJ was so excited, I can't imagine being in love with someone who can not see the special side of the world, can't see beauty in unusual things or couldn't get excited about them.Sometimes I wish I had been able to fall blindly and instantly in love with him, he tells me he started to love me from early on. Other times I am so glad I grew into it so that I know it is not just Borderline behavior, I thought long and hard about it and I am sure I am right. The fear of screwing this up and getting hurt can not be worse then being alone without someone you love so I am willing to take the chance that I am right.Tonight we have to go stay the night at his step-brother's place so we can babysit his niece who seems like a really good girl and we are going to go meet his aunt and grandma. I took him over to meet Grandma and Grandpa Friday evening and they both think he is really nice, they're right.
Current mood: hopeful
A few nights ago was the full moon and CJ and I were coming back from the store, all of the smoke that has been making the air here in Boise so awful caused the moon to look not only huge but absolutely blood red. CJ pointed it out to me and was as excited as I was to see it. It meant a lot to me that CJ was so excited, I can't imagine being in love with someone who can not see the special side of the world, can't see beauty in unusual things or couldn't get excited about them.Sometimes I wish I had been able to fall blindly and instantly in love with him, he tells me he started to love me from early on. Other times I am so glad I grew into it so that I know it is not just Borderline behavior, I thought long and hard about it and I am sure I am right. The fear of screwing this up and getting hurt can not be worse then being alone without someone you love so I am willing to take the chance that I am right.Tonight we have to go stay the night at his step-brother's place so we can babysit his niece who seems like a really good girl and we are going to go meet his aunt and grandma. I took him over to meet Grandma and Grandpa Friday evening and they both think he is really nice, they're right.
Friday, September 08, 2006
Friday, September 08, 2006
Changes in my life
Current mood: happy
OH man what has been going on.Well for the last month I have been seeing a guy name CJ who I was pretty content to have as a FWB (Friend W/ Benefits) until this last weekend. CJs children are moving out of state and his ex told him that he could not have them where he was staying so I volunteered to let him have them at my house for the long weekend.It was not easy, my place is not designed to have a 2 yr old little boy running around and putting everything in his mouth but we had a great time and his daughter is a dreamboat. We spent a lot of time talking and just being together and I realized I like him a hell of a lot more then just FWB. We talked this week and decided that we were willing to give it a chance, be more then FWB and date.So TRina is taking a chance and it is not easy, trust does not come easy to me, It is not in my nature but we will see because I am honestly going to try to be faithful and trusting.Wish me luck.
Current mood: happy
OH man what has been going on.Well for the last month I have been seeing a guy name CJ who I was pretty content to have as a FWB (Friend W/ Benefits) until this last weekend. CJs children are moving out of state and his ex told him that he could not have them where he was staying so I volunteered to let him have them at my house for the long weekend.It was not easy, my place is not designed to have a 2 yr old little boy running around and putting everything in his mouth but we had a great time and his daughter is a dreamboat. We spent a lot of time talking and just being together and I realized I like him a hell of a lot more then just FWB. We talked this week and decided that we were willing to give it a chance, be more then FWB and date.So TRina is taking a chance and it is not easy, trust does not come easy to me, It is not in my nature but we will see because I am honestly going to try to be faithful and trusting.Wish me luck.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Drama draging me down
Current mood: awake
Right now I am dealing with a lot of drama in my life, some of which is not even mine but is spilling into my life, I am trying to get out of it all before it buries me in the mud.......ThursdayI was craving coffee so I made about 7 cups and drank them all and started to play with my hair, the day before I had put it up in pigtails out of boredom and since I was going to go out Thursday I thought what th hell and put my hair up all wild. WednesdayThursdayMy friend D and I went out Thursday and hung out for hours, she is living in canyon county and since she was coming in for goth coffee decided that if she had to drive so far she might as well hang out all day so we met up at Barnes and Noble. We chatted and looked at books til just before 7 then headed down to the Flying M for coffee.The funny thing is D is a bit bigger then me and if you think people give one SuperSize woman weird looks imagine two of them together. We got some really odd looks but we both just find stuff like that funny. D chats in the same BBW chat room I do and we took a pic together so I could post it in chat. Friday My Friend CJs kids are moving out of state and this is his last weekend with them and his ex got mad about something to do with his roommate and told him if he could not find another place to visit his kids then he could not see them. SO I, being the softy I am, volunteered to let him AND both of his kids stay with me. I also ended up buying a bunch of stuff for his daughters birthday party, way too much stuff actually. I should have learned from Nadia to never take a child shopping with me.I was suppose to pick Danielle up at work but I totally forgot what time it was because of dealing with all this drama that is in everyones lives right now including mine (I am hoping to have my part of it all dealt with soonest) so she called wondering where I was and I had to have her take the bus to the mall where I picked her up and she went to the dollar store with CJs daughter and me. We grabbed them some fast food and then dropped everything off with CJ and came Danielle and I went to Chinese food. I could barely eat I am so stressed out about all the stuff that is going on in my life so I brought home a bunch of leftovers.Tomorrow I have got to help CJ move and I was going to rent a garage here at the complex but I found out I could get a 5x5 storage shed for almost half as much and that way I can put it in his name so if anything happens he is responsible not me.
Current mood: awake
Right now I am dealing with a lot of drama in my life, some of which is not even mine but is spilling into my life, I am trying to get out of it all before it buries me in the mud.......ThursdayI was craving coffee so I made about 7 cups and drank them all and started to play with my hair, the day before I had put it up in pigtails out of boredom and since I was going to go out Thursday I thought what th hell and put my hair up all wild. WednesdayThursdayMy friend D and I went out Thursday and hung out for hours, she is living in canyon county and since she was coming in for goth coffee decided that if she had to drive so far she might as well hang out all day so we met up at Barnes and Noble. We chatted and looked at books til just before 7 then headed down to the Flying M for coffee.The funny thing is D is a bit bigger then me and if you think people give one SuperSize woman weird looks imagine two of them together. We got some really odd looks but we both just find stuff like that funny. D chats in the same BBW chat room I do and we took a pic together so I could post it in chat. Friday My Friend CJs kids are moving out of state and this is his last weekend with them and his ex got mad about something to do with his roommate and told him if he could not find another place to visit his kids then he could not see them. SO I, being the softy I am, volunteered to let him AND both of his kids stay with me. I also ended up buying a bunch of stuff for his daughters birthday party, way too much stuff actually. I should have learned from Nadia to never take a child shopping with me.I was suppose to pick Danielle up at work but I totally forgot what time it was because of dealing with all this drama that is in everyones lives right now including mine (I am hoping to have my part of it all dealt with soonest) so she called wondering where I was and I had to have her take the bus to the mall where I picked her up and she went to the dollar store with CJs daughter and me. We grabbed them some fast food and then dropped everything off with CJ and came Danielle and I went to Chinese food. I could barely eat I am so stressed out about all the stuff that is going on in my life so I brought home a bunch of leftovers.Tomorrow I have got to help CJ move and I was going to rent a garage here at the complex but I found out I could get a 5x5 storage shed for almost half as much and that way I can put it in his name so if anything happens he is responsible not me.
