Monday, October 30, 2006
Monday, October 30, 2006
Sick and Tired of being Sick and TIred
Current mood: tired
So as I said CJ was suppose to have Sunday and Monday off, Sunday the 29th is the only specific day he has asked off and his boss gave it to him and then took it away on Friday. Ends up they fired two people at his work, funny thing about that is they were understaffed to start with and don't seem to be able to get or keep employees. Anyone want to be a cashier at Maverik? They are hiring….LOL
At least he will be making overtime for a while which will help with Christmas expenses.
We were going to go to Industria on Sunday, and then it did not work out. CJ and I were going to get dressed up and go until 11:30 and then get him to work by midnight. CJ had a hard time getting to sleep after work on Saturday and he did something to his eye, it has a big red spot on it and it has started to hurt, I think he rubbed it when he woke up too hard, not to mention a toothache.
So when 8:30 came around and I tried to get him to wake up it was a no go, he told me to go alone but I just wasn't motivated to go for 2 hours and then come back and get him for work. Part of it is the fact that my knees are really acting up and part of it is the fact I am tired all the time, and let us not forget the parking hell at my apartment complex. I did start to get dressed up to go, I even thought of going after dropping CJ off and just could not get motivated.
CJ feels really bad about us missing out on Industria because I was so depressed about it. I tried to explain to him I could be sad about not going without being mad at him, if anything I am mad at myself for not being motivated, for being such a wimp where pain is concerned and all that.
I am just getting sick of being so tired all the time, every fall is like this, but this year I had about a month of summer like that too. I wonder if it is my meds or what but I finally have a good mix and don't plan to fuck with them even if it means I am tired a lot.
CJ has Tuesday off and I really hope we can make it to Ian and Bonnie's house for their party. We will see how it goes. At least we got to go to the Vampire party and Elton and Cheryl's party as well so this Halloween season has not been a complete bust.
Current mood: tired
So as I said CJ was suppose to have Sunday and Monday off, Sunday the 29th is the only specific day he has asked off and his boss gave it to him and then took it away on Friday. Ends up they fired two people at his work, funny thing about that is they were understaffed to start with and don't seem to be able to get or keep employees. Anyone want to be a cashier at Maverik? They are hiring….LOL
At least he will be making overtime for a while which will help with Christmas expenses.
We were going to go to Industria on Sunday, and then it did not work out. CJ and I were going to get dressed up and go until 11:30 and then get him to work by midnight. CJ had a hard time getting to sleep after work on Saturday and he did something to his eye, it has a big red spot on it and it has started to hurt, I think he rubbed it when he woke up too hard, not to mention a toothache.
So when 8:30 came around and I tried to get him to wake up it was a no go, he told me to go alone but I just wasn't motivated to go for 2 hours and then come back and get him for work. Part of it is the fact that my knees are really acting up and part of it is the fact I am tired all the time, and let us not forget the parking hell at my apartment complex. I did start to get dressed up to go, I even thought of going after dropping CJ off and just could not get motivated.
CJ feels really bad about us missing out on Industria because I was so depressed about it. I tried to explain to him I could be sad about not going without being mad at him, if anything I am mad at myself for not being motivated, for being such a wimp where pain is concerned and all that.
I am just getting sick of being so tired all the time, every fall is like this, but this year I had about a month of summer like that too. I wonder if it is my meds or what but I finally have a good mix and don't plan to fuck with them even if it means I am tired a lot.
CJ has Tuesday off and I really hope we can make it to Ian and Bonnie's house for their party. We will see how it goes. At least we got to go to the Vampire party and Elton and Cheryl's party as well so this Halloween season has not been a complete bust.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Celbrating Halloween all week long
Current mood: excited
CJ had Wednesday and Thursday off which was nice considering he was suppose to also have Sunday the 29th and Monday the 30th off to go out with me to Industria and to relax after playing the game Monday and now he is not getting it off. He is probably only getting one day off next week and that will be Tuesday which is Halloween only problem is nothing is going on then really.
Wednesday I went through my stuff and found some stuff to sell to get money for the party on Thursday, I took a couple books, some boxes, a couple purses and some scarves to SOMETHING WILD and got $30, Elton is such a sweetheart.
Thursday we dressed up and went to the Vampire party at club Savvy and hung out and had a good time, I Spent $24 of the $30 I got on Wednesday on donations, raffle tickets, pop and this all you could drink "blood punch" that was so scary sweet you could not tell how much booze was in it, I don't know if I got tipsy from alcohol or pure sugar. But for $5 it is was a good deal.
CJ wore his new clothes we got at Army Navy and the black shirt I got him at SOMETHING WICKED at the first of the month, he looked so hot, I love that he dresses up for me, I figure I listen to country music for him so it equals out…LOL. I wore my favorite dress, the dark purple velvet, I probably look like a walking eggplant in it but I don't care it is so soft and sensual and fits great.
Elton and Cheryl where there vending for their shop and we saw some great stuff, like a coffin purse and a clear Lucite skull. I also saw some stuff I think I am putting on layaway on the first for CJ for Christmas, I figure the layaway will give me a place to hide it. I prefer to give my business to friends whenever possible anyway so it works out.
Friday we were going to go to Happy hour at Café Ole but CJ fell asleep and I did not want to bother him, probably couldn't if I tried, so I went and got us take out Chinese food (I had a 2 for 1 coupon.. I love coupons) and we had dinner in bed watching TV before he went to work.
Saturday morning when I picked him up from work we went to the store and I bought pumpkin seeds that had been shelled and some packs of popcorn. I was going to take laundry over to my grandma's house but I was already there before I realized I had forgotten it so I just visited with her, made my Halloween dress and made pumpkin seed brittle which came out yummy. I was going to make caramel corn but I got pretty burned out stirring the brittle for 40 mins. We are just going to take a couple bags of chips and the brittle to Elton and Cheryl's party tonight, at least then CJ will have a chance to wear the great costume he got. We plan to try to go to Industria until 11:30 on Sunday and then get him to work so we will have to be sure to put his uniform in the car, I figure he can change at work. My costume is sitting outside on the grass, I sprayed it with red paint and I am letting it dry and hopping it comes out like blood.
I was going to curl my hair up but it has not been taking a curl at all, I wore my rollers all day on Thursday and did not get much of a curl at all so I am going to rinse my hair out and put conditioner in it to make it stringy instead, it should be easier even though I hate the feel of oily hair.
I think we will have fun anyway I just wish CJ's work was not such a pain ass about days off, though over time is always good, especially with the holidays coming up.
Current mood: excited
CJ had Wednesday and Thursday off which was nice considering he was suppose to also have Sunday the 29th and Monday the 30th off to go out with me to Industria and to relax after playing the game Monday and now he is not getting it off. He is probably only getting one day off next week and that will be Tuesday which is Halloween only problem is nothing is going on then really.
Wednesday I went through my stuff and found some stuff to sell to get money for the party on Thursday, I took a couple books, some boxes, a couple purses and some scarves to SOMETHING WILD and got $30, Elton is such a sweetheart.
Thursday we dressed up and went to the Vampire party at club Savvy and hung out and had a good time, I Spent $24 of the $30 I got on Wednesday on donations, raffle tickets, pop and this all you could drink "blood punch" that was so scary sweet you could not tell how much booze was in it, I don't know if I got tipsy from alcohol or pure sugar. But for $5 it is was a good deal.
CJ wore his new clothes we got at Army Navy and the black shirt I got him at SOMETHING WICKED at the first of the month, he looked so hot, I love that he dresses up for me, I figure I listen to country music for him so it equals out…LOL. I wore my favorite dress, the dark purple velvet, I probably look like a walking eggplant in it but I don't care it is so soft and sensual and fits great.
Elton and Cheryl where there vending for their shop and we saw some great stuff, like a coffin purse and a clear Lucite skull. I also saw some stuff I think I am putting on layaway on the first for CJ for Christmas, I figure the layaway will give me a place to hide it. I prefer to give my business to friends whenever possible anyway so it works out.
Friday we were going to go to Happy hour at Café Ole but CJ fell asleep and I did not want to bother him, probably couldn't if I tried, so I went and got us take out Chinese food (I had a 2 for 1 coupon.. I love coupons) and we had dinner in bed watching TV before he went to work.
Saturday morning when I picked him up from work we went to the store and I bought pumpkin seeds that had been shelled and some packs of popcorn. I was going to take laundry over to my grandma's house but I was already there before I realized I had forgotten it so I just visited with her, made my Halloween dress and made pumpkin seed brittle which came out yummy. I was going to make caramel corn but I got pretty burned out stirring the brittle for 40 mins. We are just going to take a couple bags of chips and the brittle to Elton and Cheryl's party tonight, at least then CJ will have a chance to wear the great costume he got. We plan to try to go to Industria until 11:30 on Sunday and then get him to work so we will have to be sure to put his uniform in the car, I figure he can change at work. My costume is sitting outside on the grass, I sprayed it with red paint and I am letting it dry and hopping it comes out like blood.
I was going to curl my hair up but it has not been taking a curl at all, I wore my rollers all day on Thursday and did not get much of a curl at all so I am going to rinse my hair out and put conditioner in it to make it stringy instead, it should be easier even though I hate the feel of oily hair.
I think we will have fun anyway I just wish CJ's work was not such a pain ass about days off, though over time is always good, especially with the holidays coming up.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Money always slips through my fingers
Current mood: awake
CJ got paid Saturday and gave me back some of the money I loaned him so I had a little spending money this weekend but man did it go fast.
CJ bought a Halloween costume and I bought a fake knife for my costume, I still have to go to my grandma's and sew the dress for my slasher costume, I was going to put rollers in my hair and freak it out but I can't find the damn things so I think I will braid it and wear it all frizzy, or possibly stain it with something bright red… I haven't played with kool-aid in my hair for years. This is going to be the first "scary" costume I have ever done, I usually dress up fancy.
We went by Army-Navy Surplus and CJ got his clothes out of layaway and damn he looks hot in them, I love that my country bf is willing to dress up for me. I put a Aussie "Mate" hat in black leather on layaway since they had it in XL and my head is so damn big (no jokes). I have always wanted a good hat and this will be worth the nearly $40 I am spending on it.
CJ and I stopped by SOMETHING WICKED (Elton and Cheryl's shop on Camus off of Vista) and CJ found a red dragon bowling style shirt and I found a new knife and a coffin shaped cigarette holder with a black background and a spider on it to match my lighter. We saw some amazing leather jackets that were really cheap but CJ has long arms so they did not fit, oh well he did get a Navy trench coat at Army-Navy.
We went out to Wal-mart in Meridian (next town over) and had breakfast at IHOP while waiting for CJ's aunt to stop by on her way to work so we could give her some phones CJ had. Then we went to Wal-Mart and bought some goodies and some socks. I still can't figure out how I went through nearly $100 bucks so fast, I wish I had hung on to it longer since I want to go to the Vampire party on Thursday, I could go since they are only asking for a donation but I would feel bad if I could not at least give half of what they are asking. If I can come up with the money and talk CJ into going with me I will try to go to the party at Club Savvy in Garden City (sort of a small little town that Boise surrounds)
I did something to my knee on Friday and it is hurting more than usual so I did not go to Industria but CJ has Sunday and Monday nights off so I will be going come hell or high water on the 29th. We will also be going to Elton and Cheryl's party on the 28th, I know of quite a few parties and of course all the bars are having them but CJ has to work so we are just going to go visit with friends and relax that night and then party Sunday.
Monday I went out with my mom to Café Ole around 3 and had pop and chips and a salad, we were there too early for happy hour though. I love their Pineapple salsa.
Jeff canceled the game on Monday night and we still don't know if we are playing Wednesday night or not, I hope so since we only have a few more games to go in this series and then the Jeffs and Grant are playing a game by themselves for a few months, I am going to go through withdrawals….LOL
Danielle called Tuesday and asked if I would go with her to pick up her new coat at the mall and I told her I would but that I wanted to go to happy hour and that I was broke so she bought me a pop and a happy hour snack and we ate chips and salsa and goofed off out on the patio, I think this is pretty much the last week of the month we will be able to sit out there without freezing our asses off. As it is she had to go get a hoodie from the car and I thought about getting my jacket.
While she was at Torid getting her jacket I went to the library and got a bunch of brain candy so I have stuff to read for the next few weeks. I go through phases of being a hardcore reader or just not that into it, I am kind of in the middle right now.
Anyway that is my exciting weekend.
Current mood: awake
CJ got paid Saturday and gave me back some of the money I loaned him so I had a little spending money this weekend but man did it go fast.
CJ bought a Halloween costume and I bought a fake knife for my costume, I still have to go to my grandma's and sew the dress for my slasher costume, I was going to put rollers in my hair and freak it out but I can't find the damn things so I think I will braid it and wear it all frizzy, or possibly stain it with something bright red… I haven't played with kool-aid in my hair for years. This is going to be the first "scary" costume I have ever done, I usually dress up fancy.
We went by Army-Navy Surplus and CJ got his clothes out of layaway and damn he looks hot in them, I love that my country bf is willing to dress up for me. I put a Aussie "Mate" hat in black leather on layaway since they had it in XL and my head is so damn big (no jokes). I have always wanted a good hat and this will be worth the nearly $40 I am spending on it.
CJ and I stopped by SOMETHING WICKED (Elton and Cheryl's shop on Camus off of Vista) and CJ found a red dragon bowling style shirt and I found a new knife and a coffin shaped cigarette holder with a black background and a spider on it to match my lighter. We saw some amazing leather jackets that were really cheap but CJ has long arms so they did not fit, oh well he did get a Navy trench coat at Army-Navy.
We went out to Wal-mart in Meridian (next town over) and had breakfast at IHOP while waiting for CJ's aunt to stop by on her way to work so we could give her some phones CJ had. Then we went to Wal-Mart and bought some goodies and some socks. I still can't figure out how I went through nearly $100 bucks so fast, I wish I had hung on to it longer since I want to go to the Vampire party on Thursday, I could go since they are only asking for a donation but I would feel bad if I could not at least give half of what they are asking. If I can come up with the money and talk CJ into going with me I will try to go to the party at Club Savvy in Garden City (sort of a small little town that Boise surrounds)
I did something to my knee on Friday and it is hurting more than usual so I did not go to Industria but CJ has Sunday and Monday nights off so I will be going come hell or high water on the 29th. We will also be going to Elton and Cheryl's party on the 28th, I know of quite a few parties and of course all the bars are having them but CJ has to work so we are just going to go visit with friends and relax that night and then party Sunday.
Monday I went out with my mom to Café Ole around 3 and had pop and chips and a salad, we were there too early for happy hour though. I love their Pineapple salsa.
Jeff canceled the game on Monday night and we still don't know if we are playing Wednesday night or not, I hope so since we only have a few more games to go in this series and then the Jeffs and Grant are playing a game by themselves for a few months, I am going to go through withdrawals….LOL
Danielle called Tuesday and asked if I would go with her to pick up her new coat at the mall and I told her I would but that I wanted to go to happy hour and that I was broke so she bought me a pop and a happy hour snack and we ate chips and salsa and goofed off out on the patio, I think this is pretty much the last week of the month we will be able to sit out there without freezing our asses off. As it is she had to go get a hoodie from the car and I thought about getting my jacket.
While she was at Torid getting her jacket I went to the library and got a bunch of brain candy so I have stuff to read for the next few weeks. I go through phases of being a hardcore reader or just not that into it, I am kind of in the middle right now.
Anyway that is my exciting weekend.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Statistically I dont exist
This is kind of cool knowing that most likely there is no one else with my name.... as far as this site (http://ww2.howmanyofme.com/) is concerned I don't even have my name.
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There are 35,996 people in the U.S. with the first name Trina.
Statistically the 941st most popular first name. (tied with 34 other first names)
More than 99.9 percent of people with the first name Trina are female.
Names similar to Trina:
Catherine
Katherine
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There are 1,530 people in the U.S. with the last name *******.
Statistically the 18840th most popular last name. (tied with 503 other last names)
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There are 0 people in the U.S. named Trina *******.
While both names you entered were found in our database, neither was common enough to make it likely that someone in the U.S. has that name
This is kind of cool knowing that most likely there is no one else with my name.... as far as this site (http://ww2.howmanyofme.com/) is concerned I don't even have my name.
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There are 35,996 people in the U.S. with the first name Trina.
Statistically the 941st most popular first name. (tied with 34 other first names)
More than 99.9 percent of people with the first name Trina are female.
Names similar to Trina:
Catherine
Katherine
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There are 1,530 people in the U.S. with the last name *******.
Statistically the 18840th most popular last name. (tied with 503 other last names)
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There are 0 people in the U.S. named Trina *******.
While both names you entered were found in our database, neither was common enough to make it likely that someone in the U.S. has that name
Sunday, October 15, 2006
My top 3 guys
My Top 3 Guys
Girls - look at your top 3 boys listed on your MyspaceGuys
- look at your top 3 girls listed on your Myspace
- Don't change them!!
- Enter their names in order under "list your top 3"
- Be honest- Repost this so your friends can do it too.
Here's how it goes:List your top 3:
1- CJ
2- Jeff (AnotherDarknessFalling)
3- Thomas (Eternal Ennui)
1. Are you older than number 1?yes
2. Who did you comment last?CJ
3. How did you meet number 2?At the Balcony in Jan, 05
4. If you were crying would 3 cheer you up?He Might
5. Who can you talk to the easiest?CJ
6. Is 1 your best friend?Oh yes and my Boyfriend
7. Have you hugged anyone in your top 3?CJ and Jeff (I think I hugged Thomas at his wedding not sure)
8. Who have you known the longest?Jeff
9. Who have you known the shortest?CJ
10. Who did you talk to on AIM or msn or yahoo or Icq with last?CJ
11. Who do you want to see next and who will you see next?CJ is here now (and I always want to see him), I will probably see Jeff Monday for the Zombie game CJ and I play with him and our friends
12. Have you kissed any of your Top 3 guys/girls?CJ and Jeff
13. Have you ever been inside the homes of anyone of your top guys?All 3
14. Whos the most awkward to be around?Thomas is really quite and all but I am not really uneasy with anyone much.
15. Do you know number 3's b-day?Nope
16. Are you taller than number one?no
17. Have you ever been to the movies with number 3?nope
18. Have you ever went out with any one of them?CJ
19. Whos most likely to repost this?CJ might repost in his blog
20. Least likely?Thomas
21. Is any of your top 3 family?Well CJ is my BF and I call Jeff's daughter my Neice but no.repost as my top 3 guys(if you are a girl)my top 3 girls (if you are a guy
Girls - look at your top 3 boys listed on your MyspaceGuys
- look at your top 3 girls listed on your Myspace
- Don't change them!!
- Enter their names in order under "list your top 3"
- Be honest- Repost this so your friends can do it too.
Here's how it goes:List your top 3:
1- CJ
2- Jeff (AnotherDarknessFalling)
3- Thomas (Eternal Ennui)
1. Are you older than number 1?yes
2. Who did you comment last?CJ
3. How did you meet number 2?At the Balcony in Jan, 05
4. If you were crying would 3 cheer you up?He Might
5. Who can you talk to the easiest?CJ
6. Is 1 your best friend?Oh yes and my Boyfriend
7. Have you hugged anyone in your top 3?CJ and Jeff (I think I hugged Thomas at his wedding not sure)
8. Who have you known the longest?Jeff
9. Who have you known the shortest?CJ
10. Who did you talk to on AIM or msn or yahoo or Icq with last?CJ
11. Who do you want to see next and who will you see next?CJ is here now (and I always want to see him), I will probably see Jeff Monday for the Zombie game CJ and I play with him and our friends
12. Have you kissed any of your Top 3 guys/girls?CJ and Jeff
13. Have you ever been inside the homes of anyone of your top guys?All 3
14. Whos the most awkward to be around?Thomas is really quite and all but I am not really uneasy with anyone much.
15. Do you know number 3's b-day?Nope
16. Are you taller than number one?no
17. Have you ever been to the movies with number 3?nope
18. Have you ever went out with any one of them?CJ
19. Whos most likely to repost this?CJ might repost in his blog
20. Least likely?Thomas
21. Is any of your top 3 family?Well CJ is my BF and I call Jeff's daughter my Neice but no.repost as my top 3 guys(if you are a girl)my top 3 girls (if you are a guy
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Not much going on
Monday morning I went to get CJ at work at 8 am and we stopped at Chef's Hut to get a bagel and coffee then took off to pay some bills as we headed to the post office we realized it was Columbus day (mass genocide day) and the stupid PO was closed so we went to one of those box office places and sent it off there. A Co-worker of CJ's called and asked if we could take her to the Drs. Office to get some lab work done so we dropped her off and went to the box office place and then picked her up and took her home, by which time CJ was just about falling asleep in his seat. But you know how it is when you are so tired and just can't get or stay asleep so he had the hardest time getting enough sleep. He finally fell asleep about an hour before the game so I let him sleep and headed over to Jeff and Marissa's for the game. My cheerleader zombie fighter is locked in a room with Marissa's body building hacker video store clerk and just shot 2 zombies in the head. We tired to explain to Jeff how we wanted to move this desk and couch to block the window they were coming through and that had to take at least 20 minutes by itself. CJ's character is knocked unconscious and one of our team is already bitten.I got home in time to get CJ up, make coffee and some muffins (got to love Jiffy mix) and get him to work and then played on line and watched CONNIE AND CARLA which is by the woman who did My Big Fat Greek Wedding and it got panned but I loved it, it was a retelling of Some Like It Hot with the women pretending to be drag queens to hide from mobsters. I laughed my ass off and then took some Tylenol to CJ at work and headed home and watched some Food Network until 3:30am.I picked CJ up and we ran some more errands and then we came home and tried to get some sleep, I made arrangements to go to lunch with my grandma so I had to get up and CJ was telling me he wanted to clone me so the original could stay and cuddle with him while the other went to lunch. I told him there is not enough room for two of me.Grandma and I went to Chef's Hut (what can I say it is just down the block and cheap) and I had a sandwich and a piece of cake and then we went to the Dollar store where I found some more stuff for my box of dress up stuff for CJ's daughter, a little bridal type veil, a white purse that goes with it and a white feather headband and wand. I hope I can find more stuff when I get a bit more money in a few weeks, the dollar stores all have lots of little kids costume stuff.Poor CJ has slept most of the day and I made dinner but I don't want to wake him up, graveyard is so hard on him sleep wise, it is so sweet he loves sleeping with me there but I always feel I keep him awake. Thankfully we have a TV in the front room as well as the bedroom and the computer in another room so I can keep myself entertained.Tomorrow I have an appointment with my councilor and then have to head across town to get to my dentist and get this broken tooth fixed, hopefully it is the only thing they will have to do but I am getting desperate, it does not hurt but is just annoying.
Monday morning I went to get CJ at work at 8 am and we stopped at Chef's Hut to get a bagel and coffee then took off to pay some bills as we headed to the post office we realized it was Columbus day (mass genocide day) and the stupid PO was closed so we went to one of those box office places and sent it off there. A Co-worker of CJ's called and asked if we could take her to the Drs. Office to get some lab work done so we dropped her off and went to the box office place and then picked her up and took her home, by which time CJ was just about falling asleep in his seat. But you know how it is when you are so tired and just can't get or stay asleep so he had the hardest time getting enough sleep. He finally fell asleep about an hour before the game so I let him sleep and headed over to Jeff and Marissa's for the game. My cheerleader zombie fighter is locked in a room with Marissa's body building hacker video store clerk and just shot 2 zombies in the head. We tired to explain to Jeff how we wanted to move this desk and couch to block the window they were coming through and that had to take at least 20 minutes by itself. CJ's character is knocked unconscious and one of our team is already bitten.I got home in time to get CJ up, make coffee and some muffins (got to love Jiffy mix) and get him to work and then played on line and watched CONNIE AND CARLA which is by the woman who did My Big Fat Greek Wedding and it got panned but I loved it, it was a retelling of Some Like It Hot with the women pretending to be drag queens to hide from mobsters. I laughed my ass off and then took some Tylenol to CJ at work and headed home and watched some Food Network until 3:30am.I picked CJ up and we ran some more errands and then we came home and tried to get some sleep, I made arrangements to go to lunch with my grandma so I had to get up and CJ was telling me he wanted to clone me so the original could stay and cuddle with him while the other went to lunch. I told him there is not enough room for two of me.Grandma and I went to Chef's Hut (what can I say it is just down the block and cheap) and I had a sandwich and a piece of cake and then we went to the Dollar store where I found some more stuff for my box of dress up stuff for CJ's daughter, a little bridal type veil, a white purse that goes with it and a white feather headband and wand. I hope I can find more stuff when I get a bit more money in a few weeks, the dollar stores all have lots of little kids costume stuff.Poor CJ has slept most of the day and I made dinner but I don't want to wake him up, graveyard is so hard on him sleep wise, it is so sweet he loves sleeping with me there but I always feel I keep him awake. Thankfully we have a TV in the front room as well as the bedroom and the computer in another room so I can keep myself entertained.Tomorrow I have an appointment with my councilor and then have to head across town to get to my dentist and get this broken tooth fixed, hopefully it is the only thing they will have to do but I am getting desperate, it does not hurt but is just annoying.
Monday, October 09, 2006
Monday, October 09, 2006
Busy Weekend
Current mood: sleepy
Friday and Saturday were CJ's day off and we were hoping his check would come on time but no such luck. Friday night we got dressed up a bit and went down to the Bouquet on Main to hang out with our friends for the Goth get together which is now being held at the bar since no one under age ever came to the coffee and people got sort of bored with Flying M.A lot of our friends where there including Elton and Cheryl and BrandyAngela as well as Matt and Tara and David so it was nice to hang out and even introduce CJ to a few new people. We had cokes and hung out outside for a while til it got a bit cold and the guys wanted to play pool so Elton, Matt and CJ got the pool table and the rest of us sat around drinking and talking and in my case watching David make chain mail.Saturday we picked up two of CJ's friends and headed for Given's hot springs outside of Marsing, it is about a 45 miles drive each way but the hot spring is a huge swimming pool in a building out in the middle of no where. We swam for about 75 minutes and just enjoyed ourselves a lot, it was so nice to just relax with CJ's friends who are very nice people since we usually seem to hang out with my friends (who are also nice people…LOL) We left around 2:30 just as it got crowded and got Joe and Jessica back to there place around 3:30 since we went down Ustick road instead of the freeway. We came home and found out CJ had gotten his check in the mail so after cashing it we blew through it in about 40 minutes between bills, his kids and a Weird Al CD, not to mention gas for the van, the price may have gone down but it still took just over $30 to fill three fourths of a tank. CJ also bought me a great necklace that is a skeleton with wings, I wore it to Industria tonight.We went to Chinese buffet and actually got to eat some crab legs which I love, I think CJ was not quite as thrilled as I was since he had a hard time with them and I had spent most of my time in Virginia eating crab legs so I crack them like a pro. I jumped up to get them when I saw them coming out and scared CJ, he thought I was pissed off since I just pushed the chair out of my way and stormed off but you have to get them fast since people tend to hog them (not that I would ever do that…LOL) I told him I am too lazy to storm off when I am mad.We went back over to CJ's friends house and watched the X-man 3 video and then came home and slept, CJ borrowed a couple video games from Joe and stayed up playing them until he was exhausted. Sunday we just hung out and vegged and watched TV and goofed off. Finally CJ took a nap before his graveyard shift and I set the alarm for 11:15, and got him up and made coffee, only problem was it was 10:15 since the stupid alarm clock got set for Central time ( the cool thing about my clock is it is set from the Atomic clock in Colorado so it has perfect time, only problem is it is easy to change the zones) so CJ lost an hour sleep. I went to Industria for an hour after dropping CJ off, I was just too tired to stay there much longer. CJ worries about me not seeing my friends or doing the things I did before I met him because of his graveyard shift schedule but I try to explain to him that it has a lot more to do with my knees and the lousy fucked up parking set up here at the apts. Doesn't it seem to you that if you are going to build 100s of apartment units you would make an equal amount of PARKING and not expect everyone to pay for a garage? But no, there are probably 30 less parking spots than apts and so I end up having to park about a block away and walk across the lawn to get to my place if I am out late. Usually just dropping CJ off at work does not loose me my spot or if it does I can get a spot halfway around the block but if I go to Industria I can pretty much plan on walking a ways home.I really love my apartment but I hate the parking situation here and if I had the money I would move just to be somewhere with decent parking
Current mood: sleepy
Friday and Saturday were CJ's day off and we were hoping his check would come on time but no such luck. Friday night we got dressed up a bit and went down to the Bouquet on Main to hang out with our friends for the Goth get together which is now being held at the bar since no one under age ever came to the coffee and people got sort of bored with Flying M.A lot of our friends where there including Elton and Cheryl and BrandyAngela as well as Matt and Tara and David so it was nice to hang out and even introduce CJ to a few new people. We had cokes and hung out outside for a while til it got a bit cold and the guys wanted to play pool so Elton, Matt and CJ got the pool table and the rest of us sat around drinking and talking and in my case watching David make chain mail.Saturday we picked up two of CJ's friends and headed for Given's hot springs outside of Marsing, it is about a 45 miles drive each way but the hot spring is a huge swimming pool in a building out in the middle of no where. We swam for about 75 minutes and just enjoyed ourselves a lot, it was so nice to just relax with CJ's friends who are very nice people since we usually seem to hang out with my friends (who are also nice people…LOL) We left around 2:30 just as it got crowded and got Joe and Jessica back to there place around 3:30 since we went down Ustick road instead of the freeway. We came home and found out CJ had gotten his check in the mail so after cashing it we blew through it in about 40 minutes between bills, his kids and a Weird Al CD, not to mention gas for the van, the price may have gone down but it still took just over $30 to fill three fourths of a tank. CJ also bought me a great necklace that is a skeleton with wings, I wore it to Industria tonight.We went to Chinese buffet and actually got to eat some crab legs which I love, I think CJ was not quite as thrilled as I was since he had a hard time with them and I had spent most of my time in Virginia eating crab legs so I crack them like a pro. I jumped up to get them when I saw them coming out and scared CJ, he thought I was pissed off since I just pushed the chair out of my way and stormed off but you have to get them fast since people tend to hog them (not that I would ever do that…LOL) I told him I am too lazy to storm off when I am mad.We went back over to CJ's friends house and watched the X-man 3 video and then came home and slept, CJ borrowed a couple video games from Joe and stayed up playing them until he was exhausted. Sunday we just hung out and vegged and watched TV and goofed off. Finally CJ took a nap before his graveyard shift and I set the alarm for 11:15, and got him up and made coffee, only problem was it was 10:15 since the stupid alarm clock got set for Central time ( the cool thing about my clock is it is set from the Atomic clock in Colorado so it has perfect time, only problem is it is easy to change the zones) so CJ lost an hour sleep. I went to Industria for an hour after dropping CJ off, I was just too tired to stay there much longer. CJ worries about me not seeing my friends or doing the things I did before I met him because of his graveyard shift schedule but I try to explain to him that it has a lot more to do with my knees and the lousy fucked up parking set up here at the apts. Doesn't it seem to you that if you are going to build 100s of apartment units you would make an equal amount of PARKING and not expect everyone to pay for a garage? But no, there are probably 30 less parking spots than apts and so I end up having to park about a block away and walk across the lawn to get to my place if I am out late. Usually just dropping CJ off at work does not loose me my spot or if it does I can get a spot halfway around the block but if I go to Industria I can pretty much plan on walking a ways home.I really love my apartment but I hate the parking situation here and if I had the money I would move just to be somewhere with decent parking
Friday, October 06, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
Sorry but I have to stop apologizing
Current mood: anxious
I have always said I was not good at relationships, the problem is I am so afraid of pissing the other person off, of loosing their love that I do stuff that in the end does piss them off. I am not even talking just CJ here but everyone I have ever been in a relationship with. I get so afraid I am making someone mad that I apologize until I do make them a ton madder than they ever could have been in the first place, hell half the time they were not even upset at me til I started apologizing over and over. Then I get more worried, and you guessed it, apologize for apologizing. I want things to work out, I want the other person I am with to be so happy they will not want to leave me. I carry so much baggage from old relationships that I dump on the other person and I know it is not fair. CJ has an amazing amount of patience with me, sometimes I am shocked how much he has when I am being a total dipshit.I worry a lot, it is in my nature, I have an anxiety disorder, and all the stress we are going through with my apartment, with money, with trying to get him a bank account (you need two forms of ID to get one and you can't use a social security card, you know the one the GOVERNMENT gave you but you could use another bank card or a credit card, that makes so much fucking sense) with his little ones living 2000 miles away, my physical problems not to mention my mental ones, his legal issues and my van messing up as well as quite a few other things it all adds up. And I end up acting like a twit.CJ is going through so much more than I really am right now and yet he stays calm, he doesn't seem to get very upset and I do. So I know it is unfair when I over react to every little nuance from him, I have to try to get a little more control over myself or I will chase the nicest guy I know off and it will be my fault.All most all of our problems are things we just have to wait out, wait for forms to get filled out and approved (and they all should be approved but I still panic when I think of it) wait for more money (and it will come, I just spent way too much money on groceries this month but after running out last month almost totally I could not help it) wait to get caught up on my bills (same with the money it just has to happen and it will) wait for the legal stuff to get taken care of. Some of it we just have to hope the best for cause it is more or less out of our hands, like his kids living out of state and my health issues (I am working on it but it is long and slow and hard to do). I am so lucky to have CJ in my life, now I just have to get my head on strait and not fuck everything up, I have to stop taking every little thing so seriously, I have to stop APOLOGIZING all the time (he doesn't ask for it or expect it and I know after a while it gets annoying) and I have to stop fearing so much.I deserve to be happy, and so does CJ and if I am lucky we will be happy together.
Current mood: anxious
I have always said I was not good at relationships, the problem is I am so afraid of pissing the other person off, of loosing their love that I do stuff that in the end does piss them off. I am not even talking just CJ here but everyone I have ever been in a relationship with. I get so afraid I am making someone mad that I apologize until I do make them a ton madder than they ever could have been in the first place, hell half the time they were not even upset at me til I started apologizing over and over. Then I get more worried, and you guessed it, apologize for apologizing. I want things to work out, I want the other person I am with to be so happy they will not want to leave me. I carry so much baggage from old relationships that I dump on the other person and I know it is not fair. CJ has an amazing amount of patience with me, sometimes I am shocked how much he has when I am being a total dipshit.I worry a lot, it is in my nature, I have an anxiety disorder, and all the stress we are going through with my apartment, with money, with trying to get him a bank account (you need two forms of ID to get one and you can't use a social security card, you know the one the GOVERNMENT gave you but you could use another bank card or a credit card, that makes so much fucking sense) with his little ones living 2000 miles away, my physical problems not to mention my mental ones, his legal issues and my van messing up as well as quite a few other things it all adds up. And I end up acting like a twit.CJ is going through so much more than I really am right now and yet he stays calm, he doesn't seem to get very upset and I do. So I know it is unfair when I over react to every little nuance from him, I have to try to get a little more control over myself or I will chase the nicest guy I know off and it will be my fault.All most all of our problems are things we just have to wait out, wait for forms to get filled out and approved (and they all should be approved but I still panic when I think of it) wait for more money (and it will come, I just spent way too much money on groceries this month but after running out last month almost totally I could not help it) wait to get caught up on my bills (same with the money it just has to happen and it will) wait for the legal stuff to get taken care of. Some of it we just have to hope the best for cause it is more or less out of our hands, like his kids living out of state and my health issues (I am working on it but it is long and slow and hard to do). I am so lucky to have CJ in my life, now I just have to get my head on strait and not fuck everything up, I have to stop taking every little thing so seriously, I have to stop APOLOGIZING all the time (he doesn't ask for it or expect it and I know after a while it gets annoying) and I have to stop fearing so much.I deserve to be happy, and so does CJ and if I am lucky we will be happy together.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Getting the car fixed and other junk
Current mood: good
Not a lot of exciting stuff has happened in the last week or so, we have just been enjoying being together and trying to everything organized now that he has moved to Boise. After being so broke last month it was really nice to stock up on groceries and stuff on Friday. Lately with the weather changing my knees have been bothering me more then usual lately so when we went shopping I drove around in one of those motor carts and CJ walked with. He was cool about it even though the carts are so slow and he tends to walk fast, I like that he is not embarrassed to be with me even when I look like a dork or ride around on a cart.I filled up the take just before gas dropped another $.10 but oh well what can you do?CJ is working the graveyard shift and it is so hard for him to get enough sleep it is awful. Me I sleep pretty much whenever so I take naps with him a lot which works out because I sleep more than him anyway. It has been worth it though, I have been so happy since he moved here and just we laugh all the damn time.Other then filling out paperwork and shopping for stuff I actually need and some I just want, I haven't done much for the last week except read a couple of books and veg. It is kind of nice to just hang out and relax and read and with CJ's schedule so uncertain it is hard to plan to do things.One cool thing is CJ has joined the role playing group I am in and we are playing ALL FLESH MUST BE EATEN, he is a solider and I am a cheerleader. I really appreciate Jeff and Marissa and the group for welcoming him in and accepting him so well, it is really important my friends like or at least treat my boyfriend well. I have been in relationships where my friends did not approve of the guy I was with and it is just so hard, I also had a relationship where my ex's family despised me and that hurt so bad, thankfully CJ's family think I am great. I am not the same person I was 5 years ago.My car has started to steam at random, it doesn't over heat at all, it only gets to average temp and then steams and drops temp fast, the steaming only lasts a few minutes and smells like anti-freeze. I am took it in today, we were hoping that it is only a leak in one of the hoses and not the thermostat or the radiator itself but no such luck. $200 later I have a new radiator.I went out to happy hour with Danielle last night, it was nice visiting with her since I have not had a chance visit with her much though we had gone out for dessert around midnight on Saturday night though we were both so tired we only stayed at TA for about an hour. We always have a good time and it was nice to sit on the patio and enjoy the cooler weather, I don't like it when it is too hot outside and cold and windy is no fun and this year it seems to be going from one to the other with little in between.I am so unmotivated where my Halloween costume is concerned, I think I am going as a ghosty to CJ's zombie.
Current mood: good
Not a lot of exciting stuff has happened in the last week or so, we have just been enjoying being together and trying to everything organized now that he has moved to Boise. After being so broke last month it was really nice to stock up on groceries and stuff on Friday. Lately with the weather changing my knees have been bothering me more then usual lately so when we went shopping I drove around in one of those motor carts and CJ walked with. He was cool about it even though the carts are so slow and he tends to walk fast, I like that he is not embarrassed to be with me even when I look like a dork or ride around on a cart.I filled up the take just before gas dropped another $.10 but oh well what can you do?CJ is working the graveyard shift and it is so hard for him to get enough sleep it is awful. Me I sleep pretty much whenever so I take naps with him a lot which works out because I sleep more than him anyway. It has been worth it though, I have been so happy since he moved here and just we laugh all the damn time.Other then filling out paperwork and shopping for stuff I actually need and some I just want, I haven't done much for the last week except read a couple of books and veg. It is kind of nice to just hang out and relax and read and with CJ's schedule so uncertain it is hard to plan to do things.One cool thing is CJ has joined the role playing group I am in and we are playing ALL FLESH MUST BE EATEN, he is a solider and I am a cheerleader. I really appreciate Jeff and Marissa and the group for welcoming him in and accepting him so well, it is really important my friends like or at least treat my boyfriend well. I have been in relationships where my friends did not approve of the guy I was with and it is just so hard, I also had a relationship where my ex's family despised me and that hurt so bad, thankfully CJ's family think I am great. I am not the same person I was 5 years ago.My car has started to steam at random, it doesn't over heat at all, it only gets to average temp and then steams and drops temp fast, the steaming only lasts a few minutes and smells like anti-freeze. I am took it in today, we were hoping that it is only a leak in one of the hoses and not the thermostat or the radiator itself but no such luck. $200 later I have a new radiator.I went out to happy hour with Danielle last night, it was nice visiting with her since I have not had a chance visit with her much though we had gone out for dessert around midnight on Saturday night though we were both so tired we only stayed at TA for about an hour. We always have a good time and it was nice to sit on the patio and enjoy the cooler weather, I don't like it when it is too hot outside and cold and windy is no fun and this year it seems to be going from one to the other with little in between.I am so unmotivated where my Halloween costume is concerned, I think I am going as a ghosty to CJ's zombie.
