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Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Dec 13 

Sunday CJ and I went to Industria around 9 for my birthday party, both of us were tired as hell since we had each had about 3 hours sleep that day so we only stayed to 11. Cheryl made me chocolate cupcakes and her and Elton gave me a gift certificate to SOMETHING WICKED as well as buying me a drink.


CJ got me a clear Lucite skull from their shop I had admired at the vampire party in Oct. I love it and it goes great with my collection.


Jeff and Marissa stopped by and brought me some gifts from them and Nadia who made me a birthday card, she also sent me a little skull candle and Jeff and Marissa gave me a sign that says Don't Even Ask, a candle and candle holder and a little bear statue. It was fun to visit with them for a little bit and we had a chance to talk about gaming and come up with ideas for role playing in January.


Monday CJ rested while I went to visit my mom at my grandma's house where she was watching my grandfather while grandma went on some errands. My uncle Steve came over and took grandpa for a ride in his truck so my mom and I went shopping at Eyes of the World and The Crones Cupboard for my brother and CJ.


I stopped by the office on my way back home and rented a garage near my apartment since I am sick of not having a place to park when I get home late at night, it is worth $15 a month to have a sure place to park. Tonight when I took CJ to work I tested the garage for the first time since there is not a lot of space to get turned in front of them and was able to get the van in there ok.


Tuesday we went shopping at the NASCAR store since grandma gave me $10 to find CJ a gift from her, CJ collects Jimmie Johnson stuff but since Jimmie won the NEXTEL cup there was not a lot of his merchandise there. We didn't find anything in the right price range we both liked so we headed to Corona Village for lunch (I had a coupon) they have amazingly good food and a really cheap lunch menu and were very gracious and cool even though they knew right off we were using the coupon. I had a lunch size chicken fajita and was full as could be for $7 while CJ had a monster burrito and even brought half of it home for the same price.


CJ has been really down cause this is the first Christmas he is not spending with his kids and I am probably not making things better by being so bubbly about Christmas this year. We decided to go to Walmart and get a video game for him to take his mind off of it all and got him KINGDOM HEARTS 2. I also bought him a belt from grandma, he knows about it cause I had to have him try it on, I found a real leather one for $10 that has a place to put extra money in it which might come in handy when he travels to see his kids.


Other than a little bit of shopping and lunch we really didn't do anything today and sadly CJ just couldn't sleep and then one of his co-workers called him and asked him to come into work early. We are hoping that by summer when his kids come visit he will be working a day shift.


The kids got the package of Christmas stuff we sent and even got into it, I was thrilled to find out that Roses favorite thing was the Jesse McCartney scrapbook I made her. I was worried she would think it was dumb but she said she loved it which made me glad.


Friday, December 08, 2006

Dec 8 

I got an ENTERTAINMENT Coupon book for my birthday and so when CJ told me he wanted to take me to lunch we looked in the book for a place to go. I have wondered about this place, The Connector house of ribs and catfish, on 16th street below the connector. Every time I drive by even at lunch and dinner they are empty and I felt bad for them so I said lets go there before they go out of business.BIG MISTAKE.


First off the entire time we were there the place was empty and cold as ice, the only person there was the cook and she didn't seem to know what was going on at all. She took our order after a while and then even later yelled at us across the room asking if we wanted something to drink. I had shown her the coupon first thing like I always do, I have been getting those coupon books for my birthday for about 10 years now and love them, I have never had trouble before now.


The coupon if you have never had one of the 2 for 1 books is just that… a buy one entrée at regular price and get the other free up to the stated maximum value, in this case UP TO $13. Half way through the meal they tell us OH we are not going to respect that but we will give you $5 off. Mind you the ONLY reason we had chosen this place was because of the coupon and now they are telling us it is not valid.


We wait for the owner to show up and she tries to tell us the meals had to be exactly $13, mind you there was NOTHING on the menu for exactly $13, not even 12.99. I tried to tell the lady that was not how the coupon works and she told me "I don't care I didn't pay for it you did and now I am not even giving you $5 off."


This meant that we did not have enough with us by $2 to cover the bill and she told us we could not leave until we paid. I tried calling my grandmother but the phone was busy and I started to cry, this was ruining my birthday for me. Finally she says you can go but never come back, as if I would.


CJ was behind me as I stormed off crying and cussing once I got out the door, she tells HIM "Oh you can come back but not HER." Like either of us would ever put up with that again.


It is the old bait and switch, a con game, they get you in there with the coupon then wont accept it. All I can say is I see why they are always empty and I hope they are out of business soon.


This pretty much put a shadow on my entire birthday since all day I kept thinking how pissed off I was about it.


Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Wed dec 06 

Well bummer, CJ wont be getting 5 days off in a row because someone quite without notice. He will get the 6th and 7th off and then work Friday and Saturday (we had plans for Friday) and then have the 10th and 11th off, which is good since my birthday is the 7th and my party is the 10th. Money wise it is good but we had been making a lot of plans for those days off.


We still plan to get the house all cleaned up and do every speck of laundry there is in the house, which is going to cost us a bit to dry though I may take a load or two over to grandmas today and leave the heavy stuff for the laundry mat.


We need to clean out the van since the back is full of CJ's stuff that needs to go into storage or be washed and put away. Not to mention it just plain gets messy with newspapers and whatnot.


Tuesday CJ and I had breakfast with my Mom and then she came over and helped me with the kitchen and CJ did the front room, man do I need to dust in there, I think I am going to try some of that Pledge that is suppose to make things less dusty. I got 2 loads of dishes done and today I am hanging up the clean clothes and bagging up the dirty ones.


I have been playing this word association game a lot, it is fun and makes you think, I beat the computer 3 times, once at only 208 words, I am easily amused.


And it isn't like I am sitting here listening to Rock and roll holiday music on yahoo launchcast or anything.....LOL


Tuesday, December 05, 2006

survey 


Write down what you see, hear, and are thinking..


1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4... " . . . movement: for example, teres major, and latissmus drorsi both pull on the humerus . . ."

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What's there? CJ's game case, which has a slat shaker and a bottle of incense on it

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV? Good Eats on food network about making sausage

4. Without looking, guess what time it is: 3am

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time? 2:50am

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear? The upstairs creaking once in a long while

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing? When I took CJ to work and had to park around the block when I came home at midnight

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at? My computer

9. What are you wearing? Nada

10. Did you dream last night? I always have weird movie like dreams without much meaning

11. When did you last laugh? About 10 mins ago reading the "I'm so goth" list

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in? 1940's movie monsters and a wall collage

13. Seen anything weird lately? This weird looking guy almost ran into me in the maverik parking lot

14. What do you think of this quiz? It is a way to waste time til I get sleepy again

15. What is the last film you saw? All the way through? Goldmember on DVD

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy? Pay off my bills, and those of my family and CJ and then have a house built for me that is just what I want and hire a maid

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know: I sleep with a stuffed toy (a lime green monster toy I made)

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? I would end war, and make people more caring to each other, if all the resources we spend for hate went to help others the whole world would be better off

19. Do you like to dance? I would love to but I can't

20. George Bush: Now you are ruining my mood


21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? I am never going to have children so I will have to name my next cat Azreale


22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Again I would name a boy cat fred

23. Would you ever consider living abroad? If I was healthy I would love to travel but I doubt I would want to live aboard for very long

24. What do you want to say to God when you reach the pearly gates? I don't really believe in heaven so it is moot question


Monday, December 04, 2006

"I'm beginning to think the unthinkable," 

Sagittarius Horoscope for week of November 30, 2006

Verticle Oracle card Sagittarius (November 22-December 21)
On Jupiter's moon Europa, there is an absolutely straight narrow line about 125 miles long. NASA'S photos show it clearly. Commenting on this improbably regular feature, renowned author and inventor Arthur C. Clarke says he finds it hard not to conclude that it was constructed by intelligent life. "I'm beginning to think the unthinkable," he writes. Make that sentence your watchword in the coming week, Sagittarius. Be ready to imagine the unimaginable, see the unseeable, and think the unthinkable. And I mean that you should do that with the most optimistic attitude possible. According to my reading of the astrological omens, the almost unbelievable prospects coming into your sphere are interesting and invigorating.


birthday rambelings 

I recently looked at a survey and realized that almost all my answers were really long, and since I am not sleeping worth a damn I thought I would just use the question as subjects to motivate my writing. I figure I will write what ever comes to mind on the subject.


So my first Subject is Birthdays (and aging ) and the thoughts that those subjects lead to



My birthday is in less than a week and I will 38, my goodness how time flies, literally, I can remember my 30th birthday and how upset I was about it. I had made the mistake of giving up my cheap apartment to move in with a man and then he cheated and I had to move out,. I was living at my dad's business, My car had died and I was driving a piece of crap and I was having a bad time with season depression and failing at school and to top it off I was turning 30. I felt unsuccessful, unloved, unlovable and OLD rolled up into one.


3 weeks before my birthday and one week after I was miserable, I was convinced my life was ending, I cried a lot even though I had lost a lot of weight (having no place to cook and living off microwave soup) I was healthy, I was able to go to school for free (I pulled out Cs that semester) and sure as hell did not look my age. I thought my world was ending, what I did not realize was my mentally and emotionally even though my 30s have been often hard I have learned a lot and grown as a person and there is not much I would actually change, just little things.


So here I am 38, I have chronic arthritis, I have a sleep disorder, I am still poor, I can't afford to go to college and yet I am not worried about my birthday, I am pretty excited over all. I am in love and loved back, I have a nice place to live, a good car and I am ok with my life. Yes I wish I had the body I had at 20 or even 30, I regret I did not and do not take better care of it but my life is actually pretty good and I now realize that worrying about my age is not going to stop me from getting older it is just going to make me less happy.


Maybe that is why I have so many plans for my birthday, more of a birthday week actually. Tuesday I am going to go out with mom and hopefully have her help me clean up the kitchen, then Wednesday early I am going to lunch with grandma and Thursday CJ is going to take me out to lunch.


Friday we are hopefully going to go downtown and see some of our friends for the goth meet up since CJ will have the weekend off for once and then on Sunday we plan to go to Industria to party with my friends there. I was hoping to go out with my dad as well but I can't get ahold of him and he is not returning calls (but that is a subject for another post) He may come through or not I have learned not to stress out about it.


I remember a lot of my old birthdays, one of the oldest I remember is when we lived in the northend of Boise and my mom invited a bunch of kids over and put down a huge tarp in the living room, rented a helium tank and filled dozens of balloons and let us paint on the tarp. Others I remember from my 20s were mostly big drinking parties at my dad's house (he had a big place with a hot tub back then) I have probably had more boring simple birthdays than not but I don't really remember them so they don't really count I guess.


Having a birthday 18 days before Christmas poses weird issues, there are the times when you get smaller gifts cause people are going to have to buy you two in one month and the times when you can talk them into buying you one big gift for both your birthday and Christmas (like my computer last year) Of course as I get older gifts are fun but not the end all and be all of my birthday. My friends have laughed at me for asking for things like a full size crockpot and good pans and baking dishes (I had a nice set and lost half of it somewhere when I moved apartment units, which is weird when you consider I moved a block and a half or so) I just like getting the things I need, I even asked my mom to buy me a huge box of really good garbage bags from Costco, just cause they are not cheap and I don't have a Costco card and she does and I am sick of double bagging all my garbage with cheap bags. Hell it took me 2 years to go through the last box I had from there.


I was born on Dec 7th 1968, this means that even though I am soon to be 38 I have lived in 5 decades, I hate to admit I find myself saying sometimes "well when I was young." I think about my friends who are in their early 20s and the stuff they have never experienced or the stuff they grew up with that wasn't even thought of when I was a kid like Compact discs. I have friends who don't remember anything but CDs have never owned a record player and probably wouldn't know how to make one work. I have friends who don't believe me when I tell them cell phones use to be the size and nearly the weight of a brick. Then there is the fact that when I was a kid you didn't here so much about the perverts out there, I am sure they existed but you seldom worried about them, I never knew a really young kid who did drugs and we did not have dollar stores so we did not get to get something every time we went shopping. Sometimes I think that people really spoil the hell out of their kids more these days to make up for all the stuff they felt they did not get as a kid, how special can a birthday or Christmas be if a kid is use to getting something every time they go to the store?


When I was little birthdays and Christmas were a HUGE deal cause you got gifts and since we did not get a lot of stuff in the middle of the year at random that made it that much cooler.


OH did I mention the poinsettia cakes?


Every year til I was well into my teens I got a cake with Poinsettias on it cause that was what they had in the store, I got so I hated them, now I was wondering if I could get the bakery people to put them on a triple chocolate cake for me if I ask nice... And pay a bit extra.


Saturday, December 02, 2006

Running around on payday as usual 

I have direct deposit so my money was in the bank by 4 am Friday morning and as usual lately I could not sleep so I went to Wal-Mart around 5 am and did a little shopping. I am pretty much done for Christmas now that I have the kids bought for as well as my grandfather and step dad.


I got CJ's son a plush talking lion, I got his daughter a lot of art stuff ( printed her off tons of Disney Princesses stationary and coloring sheets as well as a 12 pack of princesses sticker sheets which I put in a Lisa Frank portfolio, bought her a 24 pack of washable crayons, a small pad of construction paper and another of doodle paper, a princess wallet and drawstring bag I put big bead necklaces in and I made her a little scrap book of Jesse McCartney,,, her little crush) I got Nadia a porcelain doll and donated two toys to Toys for Tots. I also gave CJ a Dragon model toy (I got them 3 for $12 at Walgreen's)


I bought my Step father a Seahawks ornament and my grandfather a big box of the real chocolate covered cherries (not those nasty cordials) I already have a set of Pajamas for mom and a set of vase for grandma (I am going to give them to her with some small bouquets)


CJ's gifts are on layaway at Something Wicked (I have to go in this weekend and pay on them) and I finished filling his stocking except for candy which comes dead last so it will last..LOL. The dragon I let him have today was suppose to go in his stocking but did not fit so I just gave it to him.


I bought a book of short Christmas stories and went to Chef's Hut to read and drink coffee while I waited for CJ to get done at work then we went and paid some bills, bought butane for our lighters and hit the dollar store that was having an $.88 cent sale and then walgreens and then we went and got our hair cut, well he got pretty much sheered and I got a trim to clean it up a bit. We then went back to Walmart so CJ could buy a couple of red sweatshirts for work to wear under his uniform and to put money on gift cards for his kids. Then we grabbed some Subway and went home, We have to mail Rose and Thomas's gifts today since we did not do it yesterday.


I dropped the rent check off at the office and talked to them about whether CJ could be on my lease or not and they STILL did not know for sure so the manager e-mailed the lady who makes the decisions and then called me to tell me he was OK to move in. FINALLY, after over 2 months of trying to get him in her officially.


Marissa called and asked if CJ and I would like to go to Chinese food with them and Danielle and Amber so we went to the place that has Buffet at your table and all sat around being silly and arguing conspiracy theories. We then all went over to the Navajo room and CJ sang Margaritaville and then the two of us had to go so that he could get ready for work. I offered to bring their gifts with me but they told me they would unwrap them if I did so I have to wait, I would be fine with them unwrapping them early..LOL


We dont usually get to do stuff like that since CJ almost always works on Friday and Saturday nights and is just too tired to do much. Thankfully next week CJ has 5 days off (all his days off in one pay period at one time) so he has not only my birthday party day off, Sunday Dec 10th but he has my birthday the 7th off and Friday and Saturday nights as well so I am hoping we can go to the Friday goth meetup and maybe do something on Saturday as well. The funny thing is the only day he asked for off was the 10th and that was the one the boss was asking him if he really needed off afterall, thankfully he stood his ground and has it off. It will suck a bit having an extra day off as far as pay goes but there is so much we have to get caught up on like laundry and house cleaning, this place needs it top to bottom for Christmas.


Speaking of Christmas, we bought some egg nog, I figured it out, it is 100 calories a swallow. NO seriously, it is 200 calories per HALF CUP and I figure a good swallow is at least ¼ of a cup. Lets just say it is a one time treat and we only bought a quart thankfully. It is a good thing I like it but can only stand a little bit.